What A Day~~

Time really flies... It eventually comes to the middle of the month and yet I have done nothing I feel right. Nevertheless, I had my fun. I tasted the greatest holidays ever... Now, I ought to start 'working' to redeem my used-for-fun time. Works are piling up and time does not allow me to play anymore. You are so cruel, Mr. Time!! But, you are our motivation to do things in life^^ So, I hate you and love you at the same time...

Okay, stop beating around the bush. I just want to whine a little bit. Today just isn't my day. I was going to school's Bursary Department (BD) to make my payment for the hostel rental this morning. Yeah, I have decided to live in hostel because many friends of mine are moving into the hostel too. Maybe that's the norm we get after getting our bad result I guess ><". However, the people in charge asked me to go to the Student Affair Department (SAD) to get approval again. Yeah, I emphasize on the word 'again' because I already get approved by SAD last week but I could not make my payment because my sister had a bank transfer to my account on that day itself. You know, it takes 2 to 3 days until we really get and can use the money using debit card.

That was not all, I reached SAD but a madam there called Miss Ng asking me to go to the hostel's office to get approval from there. Of course I explained that the BD asked me to get approval here but the SAD said that is the procedure. Annoyed, I went to the hostel's office which located very far away from SAD. I even get chased by monkeys or macaques along my way to the office. Luckily, a guard helped me to get rid of them. I reached the hostel's office and what the fuck......? They told me there is a mistake made by the SAD. I don't actually have come here as I am applying as a new resident but not as a current resident.

Reluctantly, I went back to SAD and pierced my eyes on the madam. I told her what the hostel's office told me and here's the conversation :

Madam : Sorry... sorry. I didn't notice that you are applying as a new resident. Why don't you tell me earlier? ( she sounded as if she did nothing wrong )
Me : So you blame me for that? How do I know the procedure?

*she was stammered*

Madam : Sorry... sorry.

After I got the approval, I was moving straight to the BD and made my payment. What a long journey I have to take to do such a simple thing... which is only making the payment. What's wrong with you guys???

I failed.....

I hate failure... Nobody likes it, I guess. I'm defeated at last. However, I have no regret because I know I have tried my best and I have done whatever I can to sustain IT. I'm the only one who knows and understands...

Sorry, mum. The promise I made fails. I'm a total failure. I hate myself... It's funny that I thought I could make it at first. All were just my mere assumptions and they fuck my right. Okay, I'm done...

I will win!!

No matter how strong you are. No matter how infectious you are. No matter when you are going to attack me. No matter how you are going to attack me. I will not lose. I will not be dominated by you. I will conquer you. Because, you are nothing compare to me. You are nothing to what I have been through. This is just easy. I'm the one who brings miracle. To stun you. To shock you. To startle you. To make your mouth opened wide... If you fuck me hard, I will suck you harder. We will see who will be the last man standing. To me, mountains are nothing. The sunlight is not that bright and brilliant anymore... Because I was built. I was made. I was fertilised. I was civilised. By experiences. By time. By thoughts. By facts. By whatever you have done to me. You will be engulfed without even knowing it. You will be diminished. And... I will win!!

(Ps... just ignore me ><)

The Lost One...

Recently, I feel lost. I feel lost in the sense that I don't know what am I doing right now... It is as if I was left in the middle of a deserted island and yelping for help, only to receive echoes of my of my unanswered cry. No one is going to get me out of my adversity, leaving me in the middle of nowhere. Waiting time to pass by... Waiting memories to flush away... Waiting my youth to fade off. This reminds me of Robinson Crusoe, a character of a novel who was also left on an isolated island after the shipwrecked. The good thing is I don't have to encounter those cannibals and acting like a killing machine.

I am gradually losing my shines. I am unable to take charge of my life now. I am not the one I used to be. I have changed? In a good or bad way? That is the issue I have and need to ponder. I think that is what we will face when we are out of our comfort zone right? Okay, let's put a stop here. There is no use to cry for the moon. Thing that is destined to happen will happens and what I can do is to receive it with open hands and positive thinking. Adios~~

Fun! Fun! Fun!

Huh... Today was great! I met my cousins from Canada whose names are Joshua, Lucinda and Krystal this morning. Not to forget Krystal's boyfriend, Kent, too. We had a small tete-a-tete and exchanged our handphone numbers. At first, I thought there would be less conversation since this is the first time we meet. Surprisingly, we turned out to be amicably well together and there's no language barrier ( I thought my English is bad at first >.<) Of course, we took some pictures and I'm looking forward to see those pictures to be posted. Post it you guys, pronto! Anon!!

After I had my lunch, I packed my things and headed back to KL. I took SKS-KL (correct me if I'm wrong) and we stopped at Pasar Seni LRT Station. There was a big load of people queueing there to get their tickets. Of course, me too ( Zzz... damn boring and hot). Besides, only 4 ticket machines were functioning instead of 8. So, there was no surprise when the queue could line up until the ladder there. Fortunately, I was offered by a middle-age man, helping me to buy my ticket. After thanking and bidding him adieu, I rushed to the loo because I need to pee (Aww... this is embarrassing). When I was peeing, an Indian guy standing beside me was looking at my penis! I just rolled my eyes and did nothing. Then, there was another Chinese guy came (because I have so much to excrete XP!!) and standing beside me (there were only 2 standing places to pee) again... This guy is so... I don't know how to say him. He just moved his head, nearing me and looking straight to my penis! It was so obvious you know. I stared him back and he just took a glance on me and continued looking at my penis again. He leaned on the wall while peeing when he saw me trying to look back at his penis. What the fuck? After that, I just leaved the toilet and waited for my LRT to come.

I reached Wangsa Maju and went for some shoppings in Jusco then. When I was taking my bus back to Genting Klang (my apartment is there), I saw a friend of mine, Ming Qi (I don't know how to spell). Hohoo... we chatted then. That's all... It was fun because I felt like I did something and there were many things happened on me today. Unlike the days I spent in TM... T.T

Out of the Game...

This is something to share...

QS (Quacquarelli Symonds) Ltd conducts and compiles the annual World University Rankings, measuring university research quality, graduate employability, teaching commitment and international commitment based on a combination of global surveys and audited data, including citation counts from Scopus (world's largest database of academic publishing). For your information, Universiti Malaya (UM) has bowed out from top 200 of the prestigious 2010 QS World University Rankings - slips from 180 in 2009 to 207 in 2010.

UKM, USM, and UPM have all improved while UTM/UiTM dropped.

1. UKM : 291(2009) to 263(2010).
2. USM : 314(2009) to 309(2010).
3. UPM : 345(2009) to 319(2010).
4. UTM : 320(2009) to 365(2010).

Despite having this result, the Higher Education Minister Datuk Seri Mohamed told The Star it was normal to see fluctuation in the rankings. He said, "the ministry had its own strategic plan which was benchmarked against world's best practices, and would take note of the rankings". Oh really? If the ministry's plan results in this fluctuation, then it is flawed and ought to be changed. I wonder what would happen and what would he say if our position improves. The country will be painted red? Haha... I guess this is the nature of human. When something great happens on us, we will boast and be proud like there is no tomorrow. On the other hand, we will find excuses to cover up ourselves if something bad or humiliating happens on us.

Guys... what's about your opinion?

Holidays!!

Hooray... It's holiday now! I don't know about you guys but I really need to rest after the four-month battle with my studies. I need to sleep. I need to play. I need to watch movies. I need to rejuvenate myself(literally XP). I'm in a dire need to RECHARGE!! College's life is utterly different from what I thought it would be. Coping with my studies, time management, stress relieving, control on foods, control on spending, entertainment, familiarizing with new environments, get used with teachers, making friends, et cetera must be in sync. Aww... At least I made it this far. There's no turning back, you know.

Hmm... It was tiring. At times, I was wondering why I'm getting myself into this. I meant, waking up 8am in the morning and going back at about 4pm(on average)? Taking 3 sciences and 1 Mathematics(excluding those LAN subjects), do you expect me to finish all my homework and revisions? Time is not enough man. At least not for me. Some teachers are not even up to mark some more. Haiz... Can you guys give me some suggestions? Do you think there's a need for me to drop one science subject? As you know, I'm weak in Chemistry but I can't drop it because it's that important. But I have a constant love for both Biology and Physics. That is why I'm still taking 3 sciences even though most of my friends have dropped one. I can't afford to lose my scholarship for not getting more than or equals to 60% for each of my subjects because I don't want to burden my family members. That requires a lot of thinking though...

Anyways, let's just forget about it and get into the mood. I'm looking forward to play badminton with my TM friends. Somebody please do something and I'll waiting you guys to inform me the date. That is all for now... Enjoy your holidays!!

A nervous-cum-tedious day

A faint twinge of excitement floated through my body yesterday. I did not know whether it was because of the fact that I will be having my driving test today or just after cups of tea I drank.

As I stepped into the field of war, all the nervous deliberations crept into my defenseless body. My adrenaline was running frantically. I utterly felt my heartbeats pounding hard out of my chest. HOWEVER, after hours of tedious waiting, whatever nervousnesses were dilapidated. The JPJ authorities actually came late and gave us the cliche remark that something iwas wrong with their car. At that moment, I was exasperated but I continued to hold my best masquerade for a few more hours.

Okay, I do not want to beat around the bush. I passed the 'bukit'. I passed the parking. But what annoyed me was that the JPJ guy come near me and said that I have dropped the so-called 'tiang'. He actually scared me to death but you know what? He lied. Zzz.... What an inglorious act of someone who I supposed to be so much more mature and noble. After that, road driving test. Fortunately, I got the Midas touch to have an amicable JPJ examiner sitting right beside me. I actually calling him 'abang'. ^_^

Here are my bad chronicles of the road driving test:

1. not adjusting the left mirror (which I do not know I have to >.<")
2. not using the traffic light wisely (which the JPJ guy have to tell me what to do)
3. sudden brake
4. car was moving behind
5. not using the right gear for respective speed
6. engine off twice

Hoho... Despite of having so many mistakes, I actually passed it. I do not know whether it is decent for me to rejoice but I do. For this very test, it shows me that we do not have to be always excellent for something we put on test. In fact, we can just cover up what we are lacking of with other ability/abilities, be it in communication, interpersonal, intrapersonal, life, et cetera. By the way, sorry if my opinion clashes with yours but that is just one of my mere perspectives. I hope you guys have a good day too... 'Bronto' day!

Good or bad?

Hmm, I guess I haven't pen in my SPM result. I know it is a bit late but just to add some infos of myself in my blog is not wrong right? It was not string of As but not bad too. 8As and 3Bs. What more can I hope for?

Needless to say, people nowadays mostly obsessed in getting strings of As. However, can you assure me that those exam top scorers will surely surpassing the mediocre performers in the future? Personally, I do not think so. There were tonnes of people who are not well academically but they earn more money and holding high-ranking posts compare to those who aced their exam papers.

However, most parents have neglected other developments of their children because they are only focusing on academic. It is as if children who can't get many or straight As will considered stupid and useless. First of all, classifying them as weak students is an unfair assessment. They may be weak academically, but may have bright minds to do business or bright hands to do craft works or skills like motor mechanics.

To be successful in life, you need to have skills, be it technical, interpersonal, life or communication skills. By the way, obtaining straight As is not the be-all and end-all of life. Couple of weeks ago, I leafed through the newspaper and an article caught my attention. It introduced the Multiple Intelligences(MI) theory that one might have. There were 8 types of intelligences:

Linguistic Intelligence (Word Smart - ability to use words effectively)
Career options : journalist, poet, writer, novelist, linguist, actor, singer, storyteller, comedian, lawyer, presenter, politician, preacher, proofreader, copywriter, tourist guide, etc.

Logical-Mathematical Intelligence (Logic or Number Smart - ability to reason and use numbers effectively)
Career options : mathematician, physicist, engineer, economist, accountant, manager, CEO, etc.

Spatial Intelligence (Picture Smart - ability to perceive the visual world accurately)
Career options : engineer, photographer, architect, teacher, pilot, interior decorator, etc.

Bodily-Kinesthetic Intelligence (Body Smart - ability to use body to express one's self)
Career options : physical therapist, sportsman, dancer, aerobic, instructor, athlete, carpenter, choreographer, jeweller, etc.

Musical Intelligence (Music Smart - ability to perceive, discriminate, transform and express musical forms)
Career options : disc jockey, instrument salesman, songwriter, teacher, music director, instrumentalist, etc.

Interpersonal Intelligence (People Smart - ability to read, relate to and understand other)
Career options : manager, administrator, school principal, counsellor, travel agent, public relations personnel, charity organiser, politician, etc.

Intrapersonal Intelligence (Self Smart - ability to understand one's self, introspect and self-reflect)
Career options : psychology professor, entrepreneur, counsellor, preacher, etc.

Naturalist Intelligence (Nature Smart - ability to appreciate nature and the environment and how to fit into it)
Career options : zoologist, veterinarian, marine biologist, herbal practitioner, environmentalist, etc.

Obituary

It has been a long time since I blogged last time. In the mean time, many things had happened and really changed my life and my perspectives on life. It started well from working to... I think most of you knew what it was. Hmm, I guess that is what we call the twist in life right? Here is what I feel for the lost love:

You were like my idol
You gave life to me
You showered me with copious love and care
You protected me from all hazards.

Sometimes
We bickered and I always had you exasperated
Albeit I did not mean to
But we will be fine then.

As both of us grew older
And separated far apart
Even when you weren't near me
You were always in my heart.

Nothing could describe my joy
When I found that you loved me
And nothing can describe my pain
When I found that I'm not by your side during the sunset of your life.

But fate was cruel, it is unkind
It made you go away
I knew that you could not return
No matter how much I pray.

The sun will continue to shine
With its rays that are so bright
However, inside my darkened world
Nothing feels right.

Now I'm standing by myself
Mourning all alone
Reminiscing on all our times together
And all the love you've shown.

I will always love you
You, who was my first and my last until the end.

Fabulous Day^^

Today is just nice for me. In the morning, I went to school and met some of my lovely teachers (Pn.Moga, Pn.Thana, Pn.Sharifah, and Pn.Fazidah). It was quite happy to hear the words that come out from their mouths. They said that they missed our batch a lot. Haha... Of course they do. I'm not acting arrogant but which class can really pick up and stand head to head compared to ours? We definitely have the ability to make peoples around us happy and remember us when we are separated. So guys and gals, give a clap to students from Form 5 2009!!

After that, I went for my undang test. The girl who was taking charge there was so rude! I really thought that she was having her menstruation. Zzz... At first, I was scared when i cannot log in my ID. I forced myself to ask that annoying girl back then. ..... I actually find out that I sat in the wrong place. It was so embarrassing and I did get another crazy look from that girl. Lolz.

Putting that aside, I have actually passed the test! It was not a great score but at least I passed. Hehe... I got 45 out of 50 questions there. It was just sweet and lovely. Actually, I just spent a night studying the kpp book I borrowed from Seow. And I did less than 200 questions from the question book because I feel faint every time I open that book. Lolz...excuses. Oh yeah, Chew passed too^^

Hmm... We are going for our interview tomorrow. At this point, I'm happy and I'm looking forward for my job interview tomorrow. Finger crossed, let's hope for the best for us tomorrow. Together we break through the sky and fly up high!!!

KLCC : The STAR Education Fair

Yesterday, I went to Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre(KLCC) to participate in an education fair - The Star Education Fair 2010. A great number of exhibitors were participating, occupying five exhibition halls there. Honestly speaking, I never went for any education fair before in my entire life until yesterday. It was really eye-opening for me as a beginner( Ps...I know I sounded a bit "sam ba" ). But, who cares. I'm not living according to what people expect me to be.

Through some exposure on the path I have to take in the future yesterday, I think I know a little bit more on what I should do next. By the way, I went for a talk on medicine and dentistry yesterday. Of course I was not there to listen to the fucking medicine talk. It was damn boring man!! I was there for dentistry. But... The lecturer or dentist(she is a girl^^) said that left-handers like me are not suitable to be dentist mainly because those dental instruments were designed for right-handers. What a shame...

And one more thing, I started to hate those rich guys who do not know how to spend their money wisely. They can simply become a shophaholic and end up buying expensive and posh handbags, clothes, shoes and others to fulfill their temporary satisfaction! If really got that much money, would they spare me some?? Haha... Just joking >.< Friends, it's not easy to earn money. Most of us have lived their wonderful childhood and they do not have to worry about money when they want something. Start to think that you need money now for your studies. Pre-university, degree, master and others. In addition, SOME of us will need money to open their own shop and buy instruments needed after they have finished their studies. Plus, most of us have brothers and sisters. Do you want to burden your parents? Do you want to ruin your brother's or sister's life? How if your family went into bankruptcy? So, save some for rainy days, my friends...

SEX - A Healthy Lifesyle?

Men do not have sex to stay healthy, but if they knew how good it was for them, they may. If doctors could, they may prescribe sex and intimacy for their male patients(take note this does not include the type of sex that got Tiger Woods in trouble). In fact, it is as important as exercise and diet to a man.

Study after study has declared that the more orgasms a man has, the longer he is likely to live. A study done with researchers at Queen University in Belfast tracked 1000 men from Wales who ranged in age 45 to 49 for a 10 years period. The men with the lowest frequency of orgasms were found to have twice the risk of death from many causes, heart attack in particular.

The researchers concluded that the men with the highest frequency of orgasms had a 50% reduction in mortality rates (close to the same reduction seen with eating fruits, vegetables and exercising everyday). What happens if you are one of those men who decide the way to get your daily orgasm is to hit the clubs with someone new each night? well you may lose the benefit. part of the sex benefit to a man's health is the "closeness he shares with his partner".

Couples who talk about their sex lives and explore together have greater sex lives. Although the reasons for sex vary for women and men, the fact is both women and men should have sex to stay healthy and contented in their relationships. For both men and women, sex is a sure cure for depression, stress and coping with the life's difficult situations.

( Adopted from : The Star )

Erectile Dysfunction?

Many men suffer from a common condition that can be both a symptom of existing diabetes and a warning sign that they may be at increased risk to develop diabetes. This condition, known as erectile dysfunction (ED), affects up over 150 million men worldwide. Some men will ignore the fact that they have ED and others do not realise that they have erectile dysfunction because of the confusion and uncertainty about the actual definition of the condition.

Many men believe that ED occurs when they cannot get any erection, but, in fact, the earliest symptom of erectile dysfunction occurs when a man has difficulty being able to keep or maintain a firm erection. Recognising this early symptom of ED (poor maintenance of an erection) could empower men to be proactive about their health, leading to earlier detection and better management of medical conditions like diabetes.

Recent research has shown that men with ED are twice as likely to have diabetes. In fact, ED is three times more prevalent and can occur 10 to 15 years earlier in men with diabetes than in non-diabetic men. Damage to the nerves and arteries in the penis, a common complication in diabetes, is responsible to ED. Over time, if glucose levels are not managed, poor erectile function will persist and ED will get worse.

Common symptoms of diabetes are: Frequent urination, increased fatigue, excessive thirst, irritability, extreme hunger, blurred vision and unusual weight loss.

(Adopted from : The Star)

Byebye~

What a gloomy day... As i woke up this morning at about 8.30am and moving to my window, droplets of solemn rain falling down in my view, creating a not-so-happy mood out of me. I knew i have to send one of my best friends for his plkn programme today. But... I did not know why. I felt a little disheartened.

Putting that aside, I asked Seow, our big 'exaggerator' whether he wants to go to send Eggegg for his plkn or not. He said he was going too and decided to give me a ride. By the way, there was no abortion to our other friends though we did not call them to go along with us. It was because the time did not allow us to have any extra discussion and calling friends and waiting for their arrival too. Most importantly, Eggegg told us that he was in the bus jor... so, we had to rush at the last minute.

By the time we reached there, we found Eggegg in the bus. Haha... I did not remember what I have done at that moment. I was shocked too when I saw Chong Ching Yan (CCY >.<) also in the same bus: towards Gopeng. We had a small conversation btw. We can't stay too long be cause there was a stupid Indian fucker did not allow us.

Then, we moved to another bus. There, we saw Pingping, Manhowe, Waikiat, Wengseng and Reivin. They are so fortunate to have so many friends to go with them... After some waiting, Seow and I have to go back because he had some family problem. That's all for my sweet-and-sad morning... Let's us hope the best for our friends out there!

Left-handers

Given that the vast majority of humans are right-handed, why is it that left-handedness - of which President Barack Obama is a proud practitioner - is still around?

In a study published yesterday, French evolutionary biologists offer an explanation: left-handedness, they say, has survived because it is so rare.

In prehistoric times, a left-hander would gain the advantage of surprise in fighting against a right-hander, they say.

In addition, left-handers tend to be skilful with their right hand or even ambidextrous. Most right-handers greatly prefer their right paw, which is a disadvantge in a situation that demands intermanual coordination.

The paper, headed by Violaine Llaurens of the Institution of Evolutionary Sciences in Montpellier, Southern France, estimates left-handers comprise between 5% and 25% of the population, with important geographical variations.

Although the genes for left-handednes are so far elusive, there is compelling evidence that it is heritable, the authors believe.

If both of your parents are left-handed, the chance that you too will be a southpaw is more than twice than if your parents are right-handed.

Developmental factors could also play a role in left-handednes, such as the exposure to hormones in the uterus.

There is some good news for lefties(like me >.<) in the study, which reviews published research in lateralism.

Compared with their low numbers in the general population, lefties are relatively numerous among creative men; among children rated as having an IQ higher than 131; and among individuals who are good at music and maths.

Even though lefties are clear survivors, their condition also carries an evolutionary cost, the authors warn.

They point to statistical surveys that suggest right-handers generally live longer than left-handers, by a few months or even several years.

Left-handers also tend to have smaller body size, which is linked to less reproductive success, and they tend to be more numerous in the homosexual population than in the general population.

As homosexuals tend to have fewer children or no children at all, this means that the "lefty" genes are less likely to be passed on, which counts as an evolutionary disadvantage.

( Adopted from : The Star )